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You read that right! Finally got published on Hubpages today. I’m still trying to figure out if it’s something everyone gets granted or just a select few. Nevertheless, read on:

Keys To Life: What’s On My Keychain (2014) 

http://vinette.hubpages.com/hub/Keys-To-Life-Whats-On-My-Keychain-2014

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Dear Family and Friends:

I’ve spent the last three months turning in over 200 job applications. Holy moly!!!! Is it the current state of our job market? Or my inability to stand out in a crowd of over 100 applicants per job/career opening? Maybe it’s my lack of experience? Am I applying for the wrong jobs? Or most recently, does my personality even fit the job? Where exactly do you obtain this, “experience,” when all openings require said, “experience? I really have no idea.

I keep getting told/continuously remind myself that one day, my career will arrive and I will understand exactly why none of these other options seemed to work. But then again, I get told  that about every aspect of my life. Whether it’s boys, careers, what tattoo I should/shouldn’t get, a lot of the same rules apply:

The right career/man/idea will happen. Patience matters.

All the other careers/men/ideas you really liked/wanted to work weren’t worth your time. But kind of might have been. Did you have fun?

Your career/he/it should make you feel worthy of the time you’ll be investing. You should feel respected and valued by the company/him/it too.

Distance shouldn’t matter, if it’s something you really want to invest your time in. 

I mean, there’s a plethora of advice I’ve been given but it all pretty much boils down to these four. Good advice? Absolutely. Will I listen? Maybe.

Besides those words of wisdom to my fellow new grads and gratitude to the ones that offered the advice, I wanted to address the crazy behavior I’ve been having lately. I thought I might be going through some weird depression, or health problem the other day so, instead of turning to drugs, I turned to WebMD. I clicked my symptoms, went through the regular procedure and to my surprise got, “Menopause,” as a top result. Menopause?! I’ve barely made it to my child bearing age! Omg when I actually do approach, “the change,” is it going to be a million times worse?!? (Everyone beware!) I then realized that this insane drive to do well, have a career, travel, be happy, have friends blah blah was turning me into this really crazy monster. I’m happy, don’t get me wrong, but it’s triggered this high stress I was never prepared to deal with in my post grad life. A stress even higher and more intense then that which you experience during finals. And believe me, it’s gone haywire during finals for me, but that’s to be saved for another blog.

Getting back on topic, the smallest things upset me nowadays and I know a lot of you have noticed. For example, I went out to dinner the other night and the server presented me with what seemed like, 68734905724298365 options for my meal. I literally almost broke down and cried. Thankfully, I didn’t break down and cry. I just said, “Ok,” leaving the waiter absolutely confused. He rolled with it and gave me whatever, with the help of my family.

But let’s get to the point I want to make here. THANK YOU FOR BEING MY SUPPORTIVE AND PATIENT FRIENDS AND FAMILY. I know you all hate it when I have my minor meltdowns, hissy fits, “Get this done now!” times followed by my, “omg! You’re the best!, moments but I’m beginning to understand myself and what I really want in life( I mean does anyone ever figure that out?). Don’t worry, i’ll be back to me soon, if that’s still who I actually am? Again, so many things I was never, and may never be, ready for. The post grad life has seriously brought out this volatile mix of emotions that literally drive me nutzo.

I think this all began when a friend of mine sincerely asked me how post grad life was, noting that it could be hard to get used to (Well shit! I wish someone had told me that sooner!). I fibbed, a little, and said it was great, obviously because it sometimes is, but the point was that no one had asked me that yet. From that point, I began to really question myself and go into that blah blah inner journey, soul searching phase, is finding a career now really the best option? What should I do now? So many questions. (Again, so much gratitude goes to that friend.)

So here I am, ranting about my post grad life. I’ll probably look back on this and think, “Wow! I thought I really knew then…” but I thought you  all might want to understand me now. And understand that not being in school for the first time in almost 20 years has really taken its hold on me. It’s a seemingly endless journey with no absolute plans. It seems like it sucks one day, but it is the best the next. And that all effects my mood greatly.

I’m starting to understand that a lot of us have no idea what we’re doing. That I’m not the only one. And this pressure to do well is hard for us. The job market is completely saturated. As millennials, we grow up in a time where there is not enough jobs available to us. Where we are competing against men and women who have been in our chosen fields for far many more years than us, but yet still do not have the experience to have a stable career.

But let’s not get too deep into it. If you want to talk about it, I would be happy to talk more with you, in a more private setting. (Wow. I think this post might win, “Most feelings shared,” as you all understand I’m very private.) The main point here: New grads beware! And thank you friends and family for being so supportive and understanding. You’re the best!

AND most of all, thank you for reading my rant.

To new careers, challenges, and fun! Here we go to Arizona, maybe Texas, back to California, and all over the Pacific Northwest (And perhaps, some parts of middle America)! Let’s adventure!

Now, here’s an obligatory picture, with my favorite flowers, on my graduation day for the ones that love to breeze through post and look only at the pictures. It’s a good one, right?

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Hello everyone!

I’m not usually the money asking, self promoting on my blog type person, but today, just this once(hopefully) I kind of have to be. I’ve been so privileged my entire life, that I’ve only ever had to save money for most of my education and extracurricular things. BUT I am by no means wealthy! I like to think of myself as more of a hard worker. As you might know, I’ve entered my farewell season at Academy of Art University and am currently looking into grad schools and internships/externships. And am, even more currently, looking into ways to fund these things.

So I know you’re probably thinking one of two things ( If not, skip to the line):

1. “Grad school, Vinette? Really? But you’re an art student! Grad school is the rest of your life, and that’s free!”

I know, being an art student sometimes makes me feel that same way, but I feel like Bachelor and Associate degrees are so common in our world today. My major (Sound design/Music Production) is so competitive I fear I’ll find myself working a retail job my entire life. But wait, I take some of that back,  none of that is a bad, terrible thing (It’s not) but I just feel like education opens up alot of doors. And in my field of work, connections need to stay current. I’m not interested in being famous, I’m interested in being successful. Successful means keeping alot of doors open and networking with as many people as possible. I feel like grad school is the route to all of that. With that said, I’m looking to find a school that will allow me to get a Master in either Art Education, or Film Sound or something along the lines of those majors.

2. “Ok, tell me about your unpaid internship.”

Well, that one hasn’t been obtained yet but I’m currently looking into a few companies, most of which offer full-time unpaid internships, but then, what do I do for money if I’m spending most of my time working and not being paid? The companies i’m looking into are awesome, and I promise I’ll let you visit and lunch with me while I’m there.

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So here is where you come in:

I recently took up a Merchandiser position with Chloe + Isabel. It’s a jewelry company that lets me run my own business on my own time. It’s similar to the idea of Avon Cosmetics. I would really really love if you did one of two things for me (and here goes my listing):

1. Buy some jewelry!

I would never promote anything if I didn’t truly believe in it! Chloe +Isabel jewelry is really cute and trendy! Now, I know you all know I’m not really into material things, but look at it this way. It’s a win-win situation. You get cute jewelry, I get to go to grad school! Ladies, there is literally a piece of jewelry for every type of person! Gentlemen, I know you’re scrambling to find a perfect gift for you lady friend/girlfriend/sister/mother/mother-in-law/sister-in-law/ME. Well, I’ve got you! I’ll even help you pick it out!

2. Host a trunk show.

If you let me host a trunk show out your house, we will, of course have a wonderful time hanging out together but you will get FREE jewelry (and my everlasting thank yous)! It just takes a few hours! And for my friends out there that love themes, just know, THESE trunk shows, they have THEMES!

With that said, remember the holidays are coming up! I’d be eternally grateful if you could help out, even just a little bit. And if you haven’t got the money to spend, spread the word!

Finally, here’s the website to take a look at the jewelry yourself! Please let me know if you’d like to see any of it in person/buy jewelry/have me help you pick something out!

http://vinettegutierrez.chloeandisabel.com/

Love you all forever!

 

Found this gem while sorting tshirts at work today. I encourage alot of things in life but none more than voting and teaching. So vote, and then educate others to vote. In every election, not the just the big ones. As far as voters being better lovers, that remains to be determined. Let freedom reign! Happy 4th of July eve! Pretend the wrinkles are non existent.

NARRATOR: This is the story of girl meets cinema class. The girl, Vinette Gutierrez, of San Francisco, California, grew up believing that she could never truly find inspiration in a movie… You should know up front, this is not a love story.

Ok ok, I tried to rearrange lines from 500 Days Of Summer, to associate with my life. I know, embarrassing, but I did it. I mean, would you rather I try to write a monologue, like Woody Allen’s in the beginning of Annie Hall? Yeah, I thought so. No one wants to read through that. But really, I just wanted to share with you my most recent essay, only because I put a ton of work into it. It might not be in the right structure, I might not get an A, but I did put a ton of passion into it. So there.

Another thing, this is a truly personal essay and post for me. I know it might just seem like a regular comparison essay, but the passion it ignited was something crazy, and the metaphors and meanings behind it are even more complicated. I rarely go into my personal life, only because I feel that it’s something special and sacred that should be kept out of public forums etc. but right now, I’m all about burning borders instead of bridges, if that means anything to you.

Nevertheless, here it is (it turned out to be something like 7 pages in MLA format, so I seriously don’t expect anyone read the entire thing):

Perhaps one of the greatest events for me this year, academically, was having the chance to take a class with Jesse Hawthorne Ficks, movie reviewer for the San Francisco Guardian and host/curator of Midnites for Maniacs at The Historic Castro Theater in San Francisco, California. The class I chose to take with Jesse as the professor, was Post War Cinema, meaning, studying both international and domestic films from the late 1930s up until 1980.

At the beginning of the semester, Jesse asked the class to begin watching film with a critical eye, looking for encrypted messages, unique angles and signs of great story telling. He especially asked us to find a movie that we could feel passionate about; something that related to our own lives, because this would be our topic for our final paper.

It took me quite awhile to find a topic that interested me; one I could personally relate to, that inspired, a sort of, passion. I have always been into cinema, but it has always been hard for me to keep myself engaged in an entire feature film, without having glossy eyes midway through. But then, close to the end of the semester, the class was assigned to watch Woody Allen’s Annie Hall (1977).  Previous to this, I had never watched a Woody Allen movie but upon watching it, I was in love with not just the film, but also Allen’s exceptional directing and writing style.

Annie Hall is a romantic comedy about the relationship between Alvy Singer, played by Woody Allen himself, and Annie Hall, played by actress Diane Keaton. The entire movie is told through the eyes of comedian, Alvy Singer. He is searching for reasons, his relationship with Annie ended one year before the film begins. Allen uses jump cuts to go back and forth between present day and his past with Annie. He also uses a different type of storytelling that was not seen in many movies before this time. Allen decided to tell his romantic comedy in a more sporadic sense, as opposed to showing events in a chronological timeline.  Some of the most memorable scenes of the film include present day Alvy in a moment from his past, narrating what is happening within the scene. For example, when Alvy introduces his childhood, he shows his young classmates sitting in the class. Present day Alvy is sitting in the class participating and analyzing the situation. The movie also contains jump cuts of what, in Alvy’s mind, should happen verses what is actually happening.

After watching the entire movie multiple times, I began to see a comparison between Annie Hall and a more modern romantic comedy, (500) Days Of Summer (2009). (500) Days Of Summer chronicles the story of another young man, Tom Hansen, played by Joseph Gordon-Levitt, as he accounts his 500 day relationship with Summer Finn, played by actress Zooey Deschanel. Tom, a recent architecture graduate who has little luck finding a job in his field, finds himself working for a greeting card company in Los Angeles, California. He meets Summer, a new employee to the company, in the elevator on their way out from work. It is the music of The Smith’s that initially brings them together. This film, just like Annie Hall, is told through a bunch of jump cuts moving in and out of present day with Tom, and the past, with both Tom and Summer. Perhaps one of the biggest similarities, within the story telling, is that both films begin at the end of the relationship. As each movie goes on, a viewer is taken through various parts, both good and bad, of each relationship, with the movie ending at present day, as opposed to ending at the beginning of their relationships. There is also a pivotal scene within (500) Days Of Summer in which Tom attends Summer’s party, after their relationship has ended, that shows Tom’s expectations verse reality. The only difference between this scene is that Tom’s ideas are shown side by side, in a split screen, while in Annie Hall, Alvy’s expectations are shown first and then a jump cut to Alvy’s reality.

After analyzing both films, I found that story wise, both are very similar, with the basic theme: Boy meets girl. Boy falls in love, but girl does not. Girl leaves boy for a new, head over heals relationship. What is different about the two movies are the ways in which the main character is telling the story. For example, Tom, in (500) Days Of Summer never actually speaks to the camera, while Alvy, in Annie Hall, begins the film by speaking directly to the camera, explaining the circumstances of the movie, including the audience as a character throughout the film.

Seeing that I was intrigued with both Woody Allen’s and Marc Webb’s exceptional story telling and direction within their movies, I began to do even more research on why each director wanted to portray this kind of story. When Webb was asked about the direction and storytelling in his film, he stated, “”We arrive at a different conclusion, for one thing. Plus, most romantic comedies are more loyal to a formula than to emotional truth.” It seems that both writers were looking to do something that was, “out of the ordinary,” in filmmaking, for the time. Both felt they should not follow the romantic story formula, in which a relationship is told from beginning to end but told a the story of a relationship through a series of jump cuts, not necessarily telling in the order events happened. Both stories do not end in a typical way either. Each concludes with a failed relationship as a opposed to one where the two characters decide to reunite, resulting in happiness.

Another main similarity, happening more in the behind the scenes of the film, is the idea that both stories were written by men, for a woman they were once insanely in love with. Woody Allen famously had an affair with Diane Keaton, and has stated in an interview, “…And when I met Diane Keaton, and got friendly with her, and lived with her for a few years, I became so enamored of her, I just fell in love with her. I became so enamored of her as a human being, so in awe of her, that I started to write for her. I wrote Annie Hall for her…” Scott Neustadter, writer of (500) Days Of Summer said something similar to Allen, stating, “Revenge is writing a film about the girl who dumped you. Yes, there is a girl, who may or may not be called Jenny Beckman (The woman Neustadter allegedly wrote the film for). While they didn’t work together at a greeting card company he did fall hard, she didn’t quite feel the same way, and the pair still tried to make a casual relationship out of the deal.” Through these two statements, it is clear both writers wrote a story to honor the beauty and time spent in their relationship. The two seem to agree, although neither has outright stated, that within the relationship, there were both good times and bad, and that it was definitely something they will cherish throughout their lives, although their relationships have turned more platonic. The two writers took a step back, after their relationship had ended to find reasons why he is in the place he is now, much like anyone might after their own relationship has concluded.

For my parents’ generation, Annie Hall might have been the first movie, with a unique storytelling of an entire relationship while (500) Days Of Summer seems to be the movie of my generation that tells the same, but exclusive in it’s own way, story. Woody Allen and Marc Webb have brought characters to screen that I could easily identify with, Tom Hansen and Alvy Singer and then Summer Finn and Annie Hall in other instances of my life. The idea of honoring a relationship, in this way, had never crossed my mind until this movie was assigned to my class. While it may have been my own circumstances at the time, sparking my love for both movies, it may have also been the beautiful story telling and direction of both movies. Either way, I know these two movies; Annie Hall and (500) Days Of Summer are movies that will continue to influence me, as well as generations of audiences.

Thank you Jesse, not just for the wonderful semester, but for inspiring passion! And isn’t that what teaching is all about? I’m taking away so much from one class. THANK YOU.  Keep teaching, keep reviewing, and keep sharing films!!!

P.S Thanks for reminding me that, “honesty is the best policy,” too!

A couple of weeks ago, I shared the trailer to my friend and director, Bernard Badion’s web series. Well everyone, we’ve reached episode two!

If you didn’t already know, Los Feliz is a web series about relationships of all kinds, something we can all relate to.  I think that’s what first attracted me to this script. Through his awesome writing, Bernard takes us through elements of relationships we can all identify with. Some of which I wish I couldn’t relate to, and some of which I am so happy to remember in my own life. Viewers, please enjoy, and keep watching week after week. This is something amazing!

Keep up the awesome work, Los Feliz crew, and thank you for letting me take part in this project! (Even if it was just for a few days!)

Watch. Subscribe. Comment. Share. 

 

P.S. Watch episode 1 first, if you haven’t seen it! 

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